I think my stomach is starting to bother me but I got to go to work its too late in the day to call out plus my manager gave me saturday off. im gonna have a good weekend. I get paid tomorrow im so excited. I dont want to have to quit my job ya know my anxiety attacks came back last weekend. im so upset about this. idk what to do.. I need someone to help me some how. but yeah if it happens again like it used to then im just gonna have to quit my job or see if I can work in the morning. I dont think she needs me for mornings so idk what to do.. I thought it was gone but I guess not. no really the pictures/ dreams I get awake look like there attacking me and my anxiety shoots through the roof. so idk what to do about it. I wish someone could kick the schizophrenia ass.. those people are so mean to me.. idk what kind of nightmare this is ya know.. but yea im just hanging out.. i took an extra anxiety pill hoping it would kill it. I feel it trying to come on.. idk im just gonna go home if I have an anxiety attack because I can't focus at all my mind starts racing and my eye roll in my head so I can't even pay attention.. its like a seizure without the seizure I dont fall to the ground ya know. but it makes me freak out everytime.. i shouldn't be cleaning a slicer when I have an anxiety attack but I tried to clean it I thought I was gonna die.. this health issues is the worst.. idk.. im gonna try to go to work.. my roommates left I think so now I don't know how I'm gonna get to work.