the lions are winning. I am gonna fly my daughter down this summer. Its gonna have to be after her graduation because I'm not gonna make it to save up to stay in a hotel and Uber it everywhere so I'm just gonna fly her down so it'll probably be after her graduation and before she starts college. so I think I'm gonna have to do that. I don't have a man to give me money and fly me there ya know which sucks idk why but oh well. I'm just hanging out. I still didn't get my card yet idk why... I know it takes like a week for it to come I used to get checks from my old payees.. I'm praying that I get my Hudson apartment soon. I really want to move there. ya know. I can't wait. I am looking forward to it. I gotta save up for my furniture and the security deposit unless I go to welfare and get the security deposit from them they probably will do that for me it be easier if I did it that way. I've excepted that this is as far as independent as I'm ever getting because even if I got 20 an hour from my job and worked full time I'd still not be able to afford it. unless I find a cheap enough apartment. I know they do sometimes have 1 bedroom houses for 900 something a month I hope I find one again I found 2 a long time ago but my guardians wouldn't let me I was so aggravated. but yeah idk but I think I'm just gonna live in my Hudson apartment I've been waiting for it for months. I hope it doesn't take years they all are full of it because it never really took that long for me ya know. idk. but I am just looking forward to it that way I can have my daughter stay with me when I fly her down. and I hope my brother will be able to help me pick her up. if not I can always get her an Uber. ya know. i hope I'll be able to do that but then I can just ask my guardian to get her one too so. I'm gonna have to let them know she's gonna be coming down when it's time... it sucks I hate it I don't want a guardian but a part of me is scared because what if I go homeless or lose my job ya know. idk.. but I'm getting a second job idc second part time job because I don't have a lot of hours at my current job.. I tried getting more but there always sending me home. so i haven't been able to make money. but hopefully when I get my apartment I'll have a little extra money to get food and order out for me and my kid ya know. I am gonna try to fly her down a couple times a year or once a year. this year I think I'll fly her down for Christmas too.. as long as the tickets stay under 400 we will be good. but yeah I'll be back my brother text me