well, I took an extra anxiety pill. I know i shouldn't do that but it's too late for me to call out of work and plus she gave me saturday off so idk.. im hoping my medicine works. but yeah I am just waiting to get ready.. my roommate is home i guess so im thinking of going to work like 3 45. I dont want to be there early. ya know. so yeah.. I cant quit work but if my anxiety attacks go back to being severe I'm gonna have to work mornings or just go home maybe it won't happen everyday again like it did a couple years ago.. its slowed down but im having severe im on meds but they dont really work I take the medicine and I get anxiety attacks anyways so idk.. lol I know its not funny but I want to laugh before I die. lol. but yeah idk ill get ready in a few minutes. im gonna play my game when I get home because I want to get done by Friday. im dying to be like the people in the add where I have money money in my purse and just be like here here's 1000 lol I would love to do that so much. but yeah we shall see.. ill be back gonna have a smoke.