well, just bored. I am thinking of going for a walk. it's kinda nice out still. it's gonna be in the 50s soon this week. Thursday I think. but yeah I am bored. yeah I am just chillin tho... I'm tired of being single. but yeah just stuck being picky. idk what to do. but yeah there is this guy but idk he looks exactly like edi. idk if they are related maybe it's just me. but they look crazy alike. but he's a cutie. my type of guy ya know. but yeah idk.. I'm trying to do stuff with people. maybe I should just ask my guys at work if they want to do something idk if they have wives. so idk. I'll see what happens. but yeah feel like taking pictures but the demon in me makes me see things ain't me. it sucks being crazy.. I wish I could have my peace. but yeah does anyone even tho you don't act like a psycho you think it's crazy to dream awake? because that's what it is ya know with me. it's always in my head. but I wish I had my normal life back. I liked how I never felt any dead person or demon ya know. I see stupid hoes there mean. it's in where my dreams play out. idk if anyone else dreams nobody talks about it but I've had people tell me that they dream too. but yeah it bugs me cuz I can't fight them. they just stay where there at.. but I can't keep seeing my loved ones dying ya know. it always replays in my head. I know they ain't there but it sucks because it's a warning sign that someone's gonna hurt them or maybe it's just my fear idk. I prayed to God to save the picture. it kills me anyways ya know. he knows I don't like my situation. he hasn't fixed it yet. but I keep praying in my heart. but yeah idk let me know if you see the same too..or you see your own ya know.