well maybe I can get a ride home tonight. but yeah i think he's on his way to work cuz he's working soon.. but yeah im just at home.. i ain't leaving til after 4. but idk.. idk what to talk about. im just hanging out in my room.. i really need some coffee filters but my roommate is gonna tell me he'll get it or we can get it on the way to work. so I got to wait. ill just pick it up at work. but yeah idk nothing else happening in life.. i am just wayching soccer.. got into that again. my aunt and all them watched that back then when they were alive. but yeah idk.. nothing new today.. it be cool if I had someone to talk to.. i miss texting.. idk i always loved technology.. but yeah idk..I want to get a new candle my candles are like 2 years old. but yeah ill do that in a little bit. im gonna have more money soon. you know I just want soo much to have shitloads of cash in my purse and just whoop it out and give someone a 1000 bucks. ive been wanting to do that too. but yeah idk.. ill probably go to the movies soon. maybe someone will go with me. i was thinking of asking laurel and kev. and see if they want to do that with me .. because it's so hard for me to make friends that are my age. like I never see thr 37 or 38 years old. so idk.. always older people I see. idk.. but yeah it be nice im tired or being home all the time but at the same time I don't want to end up getting murdered. omg someone messaged me and they murdered someone and were just getting out of prison. i told them I can't be with them etc. so that guy got blocked i feel bad but I can't do that. but yeah I was like I. shock.. I realize God keeps sending criminals my way. I mean its hot but that's alright ya know I got kids.. cant do that to them ya know. and i have the system they aint ever letting me get with a criminal.. I think even if it were an accident or not but the guy sounded like not the white dude in the picture so im like omg screw this i got to go. so thats that story.. another time there wad a psychic on Facebook and she was telling me stuff and im like yea yea ill pay you when I have some mone7 and then she snapped sent me pictures of people I body bags and that she was gonna curse me and threatened to kill me.. so I blocked her too. woman from Africa so.. but yeah I've had some crazy people say crazy shit. the internet ain't safe man.. then ive had someone impersonate Matt rife they were from Nigeria is what it showed. I was like omg. so made him stop talking to me. and then there have been people who said if I pay money I'd get money back on Facebook. like a lot of stuff happened on Facebook. and then g guys send me inappropriate pictures and its like you know. it just shuts me off I think God wants me to be with better people. but yeah idk I've been through a few things. like I had some scam jobs and they emailed went all the way pretended to be managers and i called th3 business and they said they don't work there. im like omg. so yeah idk they usually stop talking to me is what I found out. but yeah idk if im meant to die or what. but I need my normal life and need peace and with loved ones ya know but yeah I just realize I keep running into these issues. it sucks. but ill be back I need a ciggy