Good morning. I am just chillin.. I hope everyone is having a great day today I hope it really snows a foot soon. I love the snow. I don't have to shovel and hopefully in the future when I get a place I won't have to shovel. omg I hope it happens for me soon. I love my new rice cooker I should've gotten one a long time ago. it's so much simpler then regularly boiling rice. I love it so much. but yeah I'm on vacation I love it. I'm not in Florida like I want to be but I'm home and resting so I am glad. I'm gonna be busy next week I think. I forgot I have to call my therapist she didn't seem to call me to schedule for this week but that's alright I'll call her in a few minutes. I have to go to woman's care soon because there gonna do a procedure to remove the dysplasia from my cervix. umm it leads to cervical cancer so.. I hope I don't get cancer. but oh well if it's my time then it's my time ya know. I believe we have many lives so we should live ya know and be happy. but yeah I can't wait for my other stuff to be delivered. I got a phone stand and a charger and I got some underwear and socks organizer things it just looks nicer ya know I love nice things so. but yeah love life I am trying my best to find a remote job because even if I made 30 an hour because I plan on getting an apartment or house I won't have it to Uber once I live on my own again so. I am looking forward to it though. but yeah I havent heard anything from section 8. idk if I could have section 8 at my roommates house I rather just go back to being on my own I need a job though I'm praying I have money for food though ya know. they are gonna pay my debts but as soon as I get a good job I'm gonna try getting off from having a guardian. I want to be on my own so. idk.. I pray to the heavenly Father to help me with that ya know. it's because a lot of people like the ones In the government I see them in my head smiling evilly and honestly I don't feel comfortable being around them. I want to be safe at my house now I've met enough people who may be evil ya know. I know how it plays out. I'll be dead faster then anything. so I rather get away from my guardians and all them plus my guardian used to be a dcyf case worker I don't trust that because theyve talked bad about me. so I don't think she really wants to help me. idk I'm not sure. she smiles evilly so.. idk. it's hard seeing people in my life and seeing there background I don't know if it's a psychic vision or not or what it means but I rather just go. they are to the point and It means I can't stay around anymore.