waiting to call my haircut place. they dont open until 9. after that I'm gonna go. I want to get that done early. but yeah nothing else happening this weekend. just gonna be talking to my man. and relaxing. I got to wait to do my laundry. someone else is doing laundry right now. but yeah I am just excited to do my clothes. I changed my bed yesterday and swept. But yeah I am just chillin... I'll be glad when I get a new vape. but yeah Im changing my field. so wish me luck. my kid hasn't text me I sent her 30 my man sent me some money to give to her. so idk what she's doing idk why she usually messages me when I sent her money. I'm worried about her she's going through a big phase. I hope she's okay. but yeah idk what to do. she's 18 ya know I don't want to do too much because of everything shes been through. idk if someone can give me some advice. my mom's not here anymore so idk who to talk to. but my man said everything will be okay. he's gonna be there for my kids. he's a really good man ya know. Im grateful he is there supporting us and I'm supporting him. but yeah I can't wait to move to Hudson I'm excited. I'll be glad when I'm there with my husband. he calls me his wifey already. we wanted to get married in Germany but I don't think my dad is gonna go. he lost mom months ago so I don't know. but I did want to get married where they got married but that's alright America is fine too. I don't know how to set any of that up. im thinking get married at a church. idk. maybe we can get married in the spring and do a wedding outside. I'm too far for a wedding dress lol. idk I'll see what happens. I'm sure me and my man are gonna talk about it some more. he's the one to bring it up.. I was a little surprised because like wow you do want to marry me. lol. ya know sadly no guy ever said that that I met but that's alright I didn't want to date every man before meeting my soulmate that's not fair to him ya know. I wish I could've done everything differently and just been with him but yeah it was getting hard he came at the right time tho. so... we will be getting married. but any ideas like where to do a wedding. should we just get married in Nashua? should we go to Bermuda and get married? idk what to do. he's the one with the money lol. no I'll be doing IT hopefully soon so I'll be able to get our wedding together. I'm thinking in a few months idk maybe a year later. next spring maybe so we can date for a little while
idk when it's a good time to get married. I'm a spontaneous person but he is a good man I don't want to rush ya know. he changed his mind tho he's excited about getting married so I'm happy. I know I have someone really good and I am thankful and I appreciate him so much ya know. I hope me and him are together for the rest of our lives and we are happy and I pray my daughters want to share that with me. I want him to be able to give them gifts and money and stuff and I want to give them money.. I want to get posters made of our family ya know. my momma never wanted me to do that for them. but I want to do that for her and do that for my kids in our house. I pray my daughters want to come live with me for a little while. I know they need to meet there husband and begin there life with there family. my daughter didn't want any children and I had prayed to be a grandma.. I would love my grandchildren to be here ya know.. I want to get my daughter all the stuff she needs but she chose not to have any kids at this time maybe later in life.. we still got some time. my youngest she got adopted idk if she'll come back in my life. I miss her too ya know.. I wonder all the time what there doing. how they are .. if there happy ya know..I was hoping we can live together.. we will see what happens. I pray for them everyday. but yes excited to get my haircut. I love my long hair but I can't stand it anymore. because my hair is sensitive and it knots and then it's a pain to brush so I rather just chop it off for right now. maybe during the summer I can grow it out. I'll see what happens. but yeah I can't wait for our wedding. idk where he wants to have it. he said he'd pay for my families tickets. but I don't think my dad will go so I'll just do it here in nashua. they have beautiful land here maybe we can get married in holis ya know outside idk but I do want to get my brother and his wifey married. so I'm gonna pay for them to get married too. hopefully I get my job soon.