well, having a good day.. I am just chillin.. my hiring manager must be off or busy today. but orientation is Monday so. I am just waiting for that. hopefully he messages me this week again. but yeah I just really want to work. I can't wait. I'm so happy I'm an assistant manager. this made my life. I'm going to do a good job in this company. I'm going to be working really hard for them. there's more about the job that my boss was supposed to mention. he will probably explain it at orientation. I think he will be there. not exactly positive. but yeah I am just hanging out. got to leave to my appointment soon. idk my therapist isn't called me. maybe I should call. I've been busy that's why I haven't made any appointments. I figured she'd send a link. idk. maybe I have to call. she's a cool therapist I like her a lot. but yeah my psychiatrist doesn't want me getting off my shot because she thinks it helps me. but it don't I have to say my dreams are still playing out while I'm awake. so. I don't think it might be schitzophrenia like that idk. but I chose to believe in medicine so hopefully believing in it helps me. I hope my daughters don't get what I have ya know I pray for there peace. but yeah anyways I am just chillin waiting to get my shot. after I think I'm gonna do my nails. idk if I want to try doing a friend manicure or just put on my press ones. I did get my long square nail ones I wanted to try out. so. I'll make up my mind when I get back. maybe God will make up my mind. I love when he does that. I love God a lot ya know. I hope meet him someday. but yeah nothing new. I am just thinking of when to go visit my daughter. I'm waiting to start my job. I have to wait probably 6 months but I'll double check Monday what the policy is with my company. and I'll ask them. my daughter didn't know when her graduation is so idk I asked her tho a little bit ago I hope she gets back to me soon. but yeah I am just excited..I think about working a lot. I want to do things with my friends too ya know. I made a few friends while working my other job. I do want to go hang out with them. and I'm going to college finally for my bachelor's so I'm excited. I'm praying I pass my finals. I really want to get my bachelor's degree. but yeah I let my guardian know I'd like my best friends to come over my house and I want to go see them. and when I get a man I want him to be able to come over. so..I've been waiting forever. and idk nobody is coming for me. I wonder why ya know. like they all start off hitting on me but like I don't even like half of a dozen of them talking to me that way. I try to be sexy but it's just not happening right now. God just didn't do that for me. but yeah I am just wondering why the ones I do like disappear. or they don't even make a move ya know..idk makes no sense. but oh well guess I'm meant to be like my aunt.. I don't like being alone tho ya know. i make money and no one wants it.. crazy.