well, I am just chillin. was playing my games I made some money today.. wasn't that much but I'm working on it... my life you know is pretty peaceful except for my mental health. seeing things isn't easy. I've dealt with this battle for a long time ya know. I haven't been able to talk to my therapist exactly. idk. Everytime I call no one answers at my program. I don't really want to do it anymore. I feel like it ain't gonna matter and it's not gonna take the pictures away. I'm gonna be busy with school anyways. but yeah I've been struggling for a long time. and I wish it would go away. it's not demonic voices or anything creepy like that but it's bad stuff I get and I don't know how to make it go away you think schitzophrenia would go away for years without symptoms but it's nothing like that. but just know your not alone. I have my own battles and plus my mom is gone. and I don't know what to do anymore without her. I'm trying to survive.. it's still the same situation on welfare and trying to figure out a way to make actual money. I have my game now but it won't be a whole lot. I wish they would make me a millionaire off games ya know. I do need something simple. I did find some games but they were qued. so idk. but I keep praying keep being thankful for everything. I'll be glad when I'm in school again getting my bachelor's degree in information technology. it says on Google that I can work as a help desk or IT technician while going to school for my degree. so I'm praying that I'll have a job in a little while. I know I should probably have the next couple years but I need a job.. but I guess I'll be getting by for right now. unless I get my market basket job. idk.. it's hard.. I've struggled I really need a break from my mental health. I need a break too from people in my life. it's not good when you see them smile evilly. I don't like it. but whatever it means. I do pray things get better. but yeah I'm worried it's all connected because my friend got hacked or they made a Facebook with her pictures so I'm scared for dear life. like my friend and me are in trouble because there's people contacting us.. they targeted at me. so idk. just worried we gonna get killed. I'm having a coffee right now it'll help my nerves it always does. *smh* 🤞🍀🙏