well, just chillin. worked on my essay and my professor isn't getting back to me and it doesn't have the start assignment button on it so I have no clue where to submit it. but yeah I'm just hanging out. I cleaned this morning did the dishes changed my bed I swept and dusted and doing laundry so I have to go back downstairs and do that. I was thinking to do the rest of my homework later or tomorrow. I just ain't feeling it this week. but I worked on the biggest part. anyways I am just chillin listening to music. I might watch a movie if I can get into it. it's hard for me now days. I just ain't interested in any movies. there's nothing good out. idk but I like stranger things. but the app is on my phone idk if it has it on tv. I'll check it out. but yeah it's too freezing to go see my friend at our old work. I'm gonna have to see her next time. my roommate didn't want to go out. but then he took our neighbor out I think. but out of respect I'm not even gonna ask. and plus im getting ready for the snow storm. I have everything I need. but yeah I think I'll just play my games on my phone and enjoy watching some movies. it's my birthday next month. I'll be home that day. my brother is working. he has to he pays the rent and every other bill so.. he can't take the day off. but yeah anyways he just text me back woohoo I love my brother with all my heart. me and him are closer now that we lost our mom. I wasn't sure that would happen ya know I figured they'd leave. my dad don't text or call me but he talks to me at there house. but it kills me but that's my dad ya know he's old grouchy and wants to be left alone and I'm sure he misses mom ya know so I understand. idk.. I'm with my new family too . it's probably just for a little while but at least I have them for right now. my roommates and his momma. she reminds me a lot like my mom because she cleans right away in the morning ya know and she gets funny too she's always reorganizing my stuff. but I love them we are always laughing so it's good. I just want everyone proud of me for succeeding and trying to get a stable job ya know. it bothers me my health but I'm a lot better then I used to be. I go out sometimes not as often as I used to but I've also never really went out a lot but I have parties for a week I believe when I was younger or for the whole weekend and now that I'm old I just feel different ya know I like being at home more drinking coffee working on my laptop listening to my gangster music ya know. I miss all my best friends but everybody's going through stuff and they need there space ya know I get that now I used to be so mad cuz for the longest time even though I was sick I was mad they never asked me to hang out but I'm not and maybe I never really was but I wanted to be mad but I chose a higher road for myself peace and clarity thoughtfulness ya know.
my friends I've known since 8th grade and my first job ya know we had many good times and we will see each other again in heaven if anything ya know I don't want to be mad at the best gifts I ever had in life.