well, just made my dinner. it was alright I forgot the pepper lol I'm like something's missing haha. but yeah it was spicy so I loved it. it was a little fancy though tonight. but yeah anyways I am just chillin. I did my dishes and put my left over food in the fridge.. I was hoping to get my money from my game. I got to go back downstairs and get my clothes. I'll probably wear my new sweats for church Sunday. I don't want to wear dress pants and go out in the cold lol it's so much colder with thin dress pants. but yeah I am excited about my life. it kinda sucks because it's not how I pictured it but I'm trying to be happy anyways. but yeah I didn't go through my closet maybe I'll do that tomorrow. I know it won't take me long to go through my clothes. I got to figure out where I can put them ya know. I wear all my clothes eventually. but yeah idk I might move some out of my drawer and put it in the closet the ones I wear last. but yeah idk I just wish I had a man everyone in my life tells me I don't need one, but being without your best friend is a mistake I hate making. I rather be with him and be happy ya know. but no guy wants this I ain't ugly. I don't know what's wrong with this picture. sigh idk.. maybe people don't feel good to be with me.. I know how that is though. you talk to someone then bam because what they say makes me not feel good neither. but yeah idk maybe I talk too much on here idk. I don't talk enough In person that's for sure I'm pretty much always quiet now. but yeah I can't wait to get my stuff tomorrow. that's gonna be awesome. I ordered some press on colored nails because I don't have all the money to get nail polish for right now. I'm broke again. but my paycheck is gonna come in the mail and I don't know when. but thank goodness for my boss he's the best. but yeah idk. I am just chillin. I'll be glad when my nail stuff is here I'ma put it on. because I was thinking I need different colors ya know. bright happy colors that stand out. and I don't have the money to get my nails done I was thinking cheaper for right now because I got to pay my debts off. I should've not gotten credit cards and all my phones. I have a problem tho I get bored and like oh my phone looks old so I need a new one ya know I don't know if they have a diagnoses for that but it drives me crazy to the point where I just have to get one. I owe my cell phone company's a lot of money. anyways you know I meant to succeed not lose everything I was supposed to be like my parents were. so idk. I got to help the payee work on that so hopefully I get a job soon.