yeah well my boyfriend went back to just being best friends with me. he feels like we are rushing. so oh well. I'm tired of going through this with men so. idk.. but yeah I am just gonna get a redbull. I need more hair gel too. I'm gonna be doing my homework. I want to get it done today. today and tomorrow probably. I'll be relaxing all weekend. I need to go get my pills. but yeah I'm bored... I want to run out and grab my redbull and I got to wait for my roommate..well anyways idk.. hopefully I get some money soon. my new best friend said he'd still help me out he's supposed to give me money later. so hopefully he does. but yeah he wants to take it slow so we are back to being friends. which sucks.. idk if Im gonna be able to wait for him because I can't be alone anymore but then I don't feel good. so idk but there ain't nobody out there for me so idk . but yeah he wants us to be honest with each other but idk how I really feel.. but yeah can't be alone.